不知道

我真的不知道...真的开始觉得你变得越来越陌生了。
是我想太多了吗?我真的不知道...我也真的很希望是我想多了。
不知是我多疑了，在我眼中的你，开始变得忽冷忽热。
的确，你很多时候还是很温柔体贴的，那让我感到非常非常的窝心。
让我觉得我很幸运的拥有你这么一位爱我，疼我的男人。
可是，当你稍有一点的改变，变得对我冷淡，我就不知所措了。
刚才陪我走回宿舍的你，是多么的陌生和令我感到害怕。
害怕着是不是因为我又在你面前做了你不喜欢的 “那件事”，而令到你觉得闷闷不乐，甚至生气我？当时，我的脑袋一片空白，我真的怕说多错多，应该说无论我说什么，你还是一样会讨厌我做“那件事”。我知道我说什么，都是徒然。
对不起，我知道你的心情，可是我又一次次的重蹈复辙。
除了对不起，还是对不起。
从一开始，你就告诉了我，我根本不会是你要找的女朋友。
到了这一刻，我真的在想了，我会不会真的不适合你呢?
这个想法太恐怖了，可是在我们一次又一次的吵架过后，这想法就变得越来越真实，越来越常出现在我的脑袋。
在刚才你那淡淡的一句“晚安” 后，我连原本要亲口对你说“我爱你”的勇气都没有了。
冲忙地回了一声的“晚安”，我就快快地进宿舍，因为，那时，我已经难过得想哭出来了。
就为了“那件事”，你连说“我爱你”也不想了吗?
看了你给我简短的信息，我的心真的跌到了最低地。
那么的一封信息，杀伤力竟是如此的强。
看得我的心好痛，好痛。
我终于明白当你看到我给的简短信息是什么滋味了...对不起。
可是我可以肯定是...你的感受一定没有我现在那么难受。
我真的不知该怎么办了?我已经快忘记了那个无论在什么时候都会先想到我，在乎我的ciwawa了...告诉我，我应该怎么办?
我一直不断的安慰自己，想着你也是人，你也有情绪的。或许再多一会，你就会打给我，温柔的安慰我，叫我不要多想。可是，一分钟，五分钟，十分钟，你的电话还是没来。
我一直一直安慰自己，可能你也在冷静中。
可是，真的不能。
不好的想法一直缠绕在我脑海和心里，压得我真的快喘不过气了。我真的快崩溃了。
拜托，不要这样对我好吗?我承受不起。我没有你想象中的坚强!

以前的你，变得越来越模糊了。
现在的你对我来说，真的很陌生。
人，真的变得很快，我是；你也是。
我知道我不能怪你的。
我只能怪自己。

I'm sucks in pretending happy while I'm sad

It's late and I still awake.

Tried to sleep but cannot...Mood so down until sleep also susah!? Hell yeah...

I know that you already told me so many times that I shouldn't be so emotional...

Maybe until you sendiri will also sien to talk about it, who knows?

You always try hard to cheer me up when I was down, but you know that, sometimes I need to pretending happy, and smile to you when actually I'm sad. I know that I shouldn't let you worry about me so much, that's why i choose to pretend.sometimes. 

Sometimes you really can cheer me up, I have to say thank you to you, for being so care about me.

But, when I force myself to cheer up in front of you while actually I'm NOT, everytime are also the hardest times for me, you know? 

Don't feel sad and angry about yourself for being not so 体贴 after read this post. You should know the reason  why I wanted to do like that. The reason was simple, just because I don't want you to worry about me. I know that when I was moody, you sure will bother and think out so many ways to just try to make me happy back again.

Sometimes, even you lame jokes doesn't work so much, but i really can feel the care from you heart, that's why...I CHOOSE TO PRETEND CHEER UP ADY.

You know that I'm an emotional queen and I won't be able to cheer up and happy again easily after i get moody. Sometimes I will feel sad about....you said you understand me, and I believe I told you before, sometimes, when i get moody, i prefer to cool down alone without saying anything, I just need some times to refresh myself. Sometimes, I prefer you to say to me "Dear, don't moody anymore, I will be by your side silently until you finish cool down and face to me while a cheerful smile again." 

I'M SUCKS IN PRETENDING HAPPY WHILE I'M ACTUALLY SAD. 

Please try to understand me, this is the way how I am.

I know emotional is not a good thing, and I know I should change it. But, this is part of my personality, I can't change it easily since it already follow me from the day i was born.

You dislike emo-type girl, I knew it before we being together, If i continue my emotional again and again...I was worrying and wondering....will you feel sien and start hate me? soon or late? This is the thing I never know, even you said you won't, but we are human, we can never know what's gonna happen on next....

That's why I dislike to let you come to find me when I'm MOODY. I just need times to cool down myself. And the next day, face to you or talk to you with a cheerful smile and voice.

I'm sorry that I'm an emo girl.

Work worK

Recently work as a part time at E@curve,selling some cosmetics and accessories.
I never work any other kind of jobs besides that kindergarden teacher, it's really new for me and difficult to handle...but still,everything so far so good....juz sometime will met some kacau and annoying customers and pissed off me~trying hard to get used to it.... =S

I felt lucky that my man work wif me as well...and he willing to be my driver every work days~so sweetzzzz~
But still,we had few times quarrel because of this job. Everytime we quarrel, my heart really pain....that's hard to describe... After gone through all this things, I only realized that I'm not 体贴 enough...as a girlfriend,I make him worried so much but not dare to told me,I'm fail,am I?

But, I wont give up easily because of this! I believe that my love toward  him will give me the strength to overcome all the difficult problem that we met.

只要我还爱着他的一天，我都不会放弃！

Andy babii, I need to say sorry to you at here. Even though u said that this is not my fault, but I don't think so.
Relationship is depends on the effort of both of us, we cannot so selfish that always wanted to be the 被爱 person. Relationship will bcum perfect if the boy love the girl as how the girl love the boy....

All I want is balance de LOVE~


Now forget about my "真情告白" , lets enjoy to seeing my latest camwhore photos~weheeeeeee~

Muackz muackzzz!

I want his eyes!so big! jealous jealous!

I love my curly hair~natural rite?plan to do the permanent curl jor =) 

ugly~ Zzzz =3=

End of the post~bye bye!

Wish list of MATERIALISTIC girl~

I admit that myself is a materialistic girl, and I love branded also.

Feel bad of myself but just can't stop think about those THINGS~

Ya,those expensive things......

Burberry handbag~Its always my 1st target handbag..I just simply love the grid design on the handbag~

Next target of handbag~ Longchamp!

I love both of Gris and Noir colors!I guess that I will grab one soon~Guys,which colors better ah?

Hope that this is not so expensive la! T^T 

Here the thing i really wanted so long time already~A NEW CELLPHONE!

My current cellphone got some problem ady,wish to change a cellphone with good function...

Here are some model of phone that I wish to get it!

Sony Ericsson Xperia X8

HTC Incredible S

SAMSUNG GalaxyS II

This is the phone I MOST love currently!

Really wish to have one but i guess currently is impossible la~B'coz it is DAMN expensive! T^T

But believe in me!I will get u home one day!Samsung GalaxyS II baby!

体会 n' 感受

过去的三天我都一直在工作...
说实在的，真的很累~
忙到我都没有时间上facebook了~
幸好有他的支持...
虽然我们有为了工作的事情搞得有点不愉快，但是我们还是跨过去，走过来啦！
如果彼此是爱着对方的，没有什么难题是过不到的！
信任真的很重要，坦白更是 the key of maintaining a good relationship.
我坦白地告诉他一切，他也信任我的一切...
就这样，皆大欢喜 =)

这次的工作真的让我学会了很多东西，这对将来我毕业后的工作应该会有帮助吧！
也谢谢我的家人支持我！谢谢他们如此体谅我！
我爱你们！

接下来还有几天要工作去~加油吧！

生理期瘦身法~

不用花大筆錢買減肥藥，不用吃藥物的減肥法，

靠的是女性生理期減肥法

一周瘦的1~2公斤，覺不是問題

當女人要變漂亮，真的要花很多功夫

所謂的生理期減肥，

就是運用生理周期將瘦身分成四期，

分別是月經來的1-7天稱為瘦身福利期

月經後的第7-14天稱為瘦身超速期

月經後的第14-21天稱為瘦身平快期

以及月經後的第21-28天稱為瘦身緩慢期。

在這四個階段

依據身體的機能狀況並配合飲食

以達到減重的目的。

★經期來的1~7天(瘦身福利期)

這段時間的新陳代謝率較好，由於動情素進入黃體期，

分泌黃體素，造成水份滯留，因此出現浮腫現象。

所以在生理期這段期間，有的人會有體重增加的情形

增加的幅度約為1～3公斤。

★經期後的7~14天(瘦身超速期)

這段時間是生理週期裡的減肥黃金期。

有人說這段期間只要做好飲食控制，

通常都能看見不錯的成效。

但是就原理來說，

之所以在這段時間會有明顯成效，

多半是因為它將在生理期間造成水分滯留的水分排出，

因此體重約會在這個階段下降1~2公斤，

★經期後的14~21天(瘦身平快期)

這個階段的新陳代謝率較緩慢，

食慾也會變的比較好，

所以這個階段更應該好好控制本身的飲食與加強自己的運動量。

如果很容易感到飢餓或是嘴饞，

在現在這個炎熱的夏天，

可以多吃點像是愛玉、蒟弱、仙草等較有飽足感的甜點零食來充飢。

★經期後的21~28天(瘦身緩慢期)

這個時候用什麼樣的減肥方法，

通常也看不出成效，會遇到所謂的停滯期。

這階段容易冒痘痘，

甚至還會有體重些微上升的情形出現。

 

蕃茄

常可聽到坊間流傳「吃大蕃茄可以減肥」或

「糖尿病患者可多吃大蕃茄」等說法，

是因為依照大蕃茄所含的食物營養成份，

可將其歸屬於低醣且高纖維的蔬菜類，

由於熱量低，當然可當作體重控制者的最佳點心，

若是一些糖尿病患者也可將其視為較易準備的蔬菜來食用。

含有大量的果膠、柿膠酚、可溶性收斂劑等成份

 蕃茄內含豐富的蕃茄紅素（Lycopene），

具有強力的抗氧化功能，可以減少低密度脂蛋白、

降低血漿膽固醇濃度，預防心血管疾病。 

紅葡萄

葡萄含有許多美麗的能量，

例如葡萄果液裡含有多酚（Poly-phenol），

葡萄籽油富含必須脂肪酸，

而紅葡萄皮則可以促進肌膚緊實、穩固。

傳說中，特殊品種的紅葡萄具有非常特別的作用。

科學家們在紅葡萄裡面發現非常高濃度的成分，

這些成分可以透過內服或外用來增加節締組織的穩定性，

提升靜脈血管管壁的通順，

進而降低組織內的水腫現象

也可以獨立作用，發揮抗氧化的功能﹐

清除自由基，進而防癌抗老化。

话在心里口难开

是我期待得太多了吗？期待他无论什么时候都是我的一百分男朋友，期待他无论我在想什么他都知道，因为我实在不善于表达自己，尝试过很多很多次，可是每次就是说不出口。

话在心里口难开，这句话真的把我形容得很贴切。

Short post (Pictures Time)

Hi~This is Carmen ^^

Long time didn't cam whore jor....And now finally update my blog wif my SELF-LOVE photos! =)

Tried to act cute~but i guess i'm failed,rite? =S

BYE BYE people~