SORRY is the only word I have now

I need to say sorry to you at here,sorry for make you disappointed and sad.
If there is one more chance to me, I wont let this happened.
But now,it's already happened and no matter how regret I am, It's still exist.
I have done something that you hate the most and lied to you for such as long time.


But I need you to know that......

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you might just can't accept the other face of me. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. I really never plan to lie to you. But, do you know, It's really hard to tell you the truth that you might hate me because of the TRUTH. Because i care about you, care about your feeling.AND....scare that you might leave me because of this. I really wish to tell you by my mouth that how I love you, how I need you in my life,and how much i want you. But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside. Because I'm not well express my feeling in LOVE.

I know that love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. But I really scare to let you know all of me,I always wish to show my perfect side to you even though the inside of me is ugly. I scare that you're not willing to be with me anymore if you know that who am I.

Please forgive me that I'm not enough trust you,even myself.

I know that love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. But do you know how much courage I need to tell you the truth when I know that you're fully trusting me all the time? I feel so guilty when every time I face to you and fail to tell you. I'm loser.


When I know that you realize the truth by yourself. I'm so ashamed and guilty.
I can understand that you are sad, angry of me, disappointed on me.
I really know how hard those feelings are.
Now, I'm not expect that you can fully forgive me. 
Because,trust is like a vase... once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.
Even you said that you can forgot those things and never look into once again...but,there is still a scar inside your heart, even mine.
No one can truly trust the people who's lie on them once. In the deep side of their heart, they still will always think that the people might lie on them again. 

Do you really can truly trust me once again?


If you can't, it means that our relationship is out of trust.
A relationship with no trust, that isn't called LOVE anymore.


I'm so shock that when you told me you're viewed my privacy by not tell me.
At first, I'm very angry.But slowly, the emotion change to sad and disappointed.


I'm so sad that I can't give the 100% 安全感 to you.
If you have enough 安全感 from me,these things will definitely not happen.
This all my fault, I really hide so much things from you for just to care how you look me.
I'm too selfish.


I'm too disappointed on myself. 
I really didn't realized how much you worried and til you do that, I only know that you didn't trust me at all.
It's my fault that can't make you fully trusting me.
And the fact is....I really got so much things hide from you.
So I can't truly angry of what you have done, but i also cannot forget those things in a short time.
Because it's really a big impact for me.
I don't know whether I can face to you  naturally or not....every time face to you, It always remind me how UGLY I am.


Once again,SORRY. 
I failed your trust. 

Quotes

Here are some nice and cool quotes that i found from the internet...

They are really cool so i decided to show to u guys as well ^^

 

 

 

Pirates in the Midvalley~

Sorry...this the the quite belated post...last few days really have no mood to blog.
20/5/2011,I went to Midvalley with my man for the Pirates of The Caribbean: On Stranger Tides .

Jack Sparrow

Angelica

Captain Blackbeard

Captain Hector Barbossa

Syrena & Philip Swift

 

The trailer of Pirates 4

This movie not bad to watch...but because of I watched it in 3D and thank to the 3D glasses,I not so enjoy the movie time at all...watched 3D really is a hard job,u need more concerntrate on the movie to get the 3D effects...LOLZ

There is an exhibition of the movie in Midvalley shopping mall on that day....quite nice,so i took some pics and show u guys ^^

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Couple of the day

Movie time!!!

Went to Fast and Furious 5 wif my man ytd @ The Garden.

The 2 different types poster of the movie 

 

 This poster i like the most ^^

 

Never seen this poster in Malaysia b4.

I was wondering,is this type of poster only shows up in other country but not in Malaysia?

The main character was still Vin Diesel and Paul Walker...

Seriously,I damn like Vin Diesel!He is so freaking awesome!

I like the way that he acting.Such a cool and man guy...

I believe that u guys agree too,rite? ^^

Ok,let's briefly understand what's the movie talks about~

STORYLINE:

Former cop Brian O'Conner partners with ex-con Dom Toretto on the opposite side of the law. Since Brian and Mia Toretto broke Dom out of custody, they've blown across many borders to elude authorities. Now backed into a corner in Rio de Janeiro, they must pull one last job in order to gain their freedom. As they assemble their elite team of top racers, the unlikely allies know their only shot of getting out for good means confronting the corrupt businessman who wants them dead. But he's not the only one on their tail. Hard-nosed federal agent Luke Hobbs never misses his target. When he is assigned to track down Dom and Brian, he and his strike team launch an all-out assault to capture them. But as his men tear through Brazil, Hobbs learns he can't separate the good guys from the bad. Now, he must rely on his instincts to corner his prey... before someone else runs them down first.

The trailer of Fast and Furious 5~

I just spotted the music video of the movie~

"How We Roll" Fast 5 Remix

Don Omar (featuring Rhymes,Reek da Villian and J-doe)

I didn't this after credit scene in Cinema.=.=

After my bro told me,I only realize that i missed an important scene! OMG!

But no worried~

To those who are missed the after credit scene,you may still can watch it on youtube~

 

So this after credit scene means what? Sound like Letty is still alive!

I guess there will be Fast and Furious 6 soon!So excited~WEHEEEE!!!! =D 

Fast and Furious 5 really is an awesome movie,you won't feel REGRET after watched it!

I wish......relationship

I wish to have this kind of relationship with my man and it will last longer....

I'm not sure that I can be his best friends,but it's no doubt that I will try my best to be his perfect lover.

Honestly,we really spent more serious times than the playful times...All this because of my temper.

Hope that i can change my weird temper ASAP!

Because i wish to share the happiest memories with my man together,the memories that belongs to us only.

I really love to make joke with my man.

But sometime,it is over and myself never realize....

say SORRY to u at here.

I love the moments when u hug me tight,because I can felt that you really love me,so do I.

 

With my man,I know that I still haven't completely act myself in front of him.

Because I really not used to show all of me to other people.

But,I think that,maybe in the future...I can make it.

Because he is the man that even I have bad habits,but still love me. ^^

Camwhoring~

 Feel like wanna blog but I really have nothing to blog about....

So....PHOTO time!

 Upload some recent camwhore photo to u guys ^^

Sorry that if make u guys' eyes suffer ya =P

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那些话

我万万没有想到那些话会从你口中说出来...

当我听到时，是惊讶，更是伤心,失望。

伤心，这些话居然是从我的男朋友口中说出来的。

如果是换成从别人，我的朋友说的，我可以一笑带过。

可是，为何偏偏是从你口中说出来呢？

失望，你忽略了我的感受。

这些话在我听起来，是多么的侮辱啊...

尤其是你说的，更像是一把利刃，深深地刺入我的心。

这形容得一点都不过分。

是痛得想哭，也哭不出来。

我知道你不是有意说出这些话的，可是...我就是不能停止自己去想。

那些话，在我脑海出现了一遍又一遍。

是我太小气了吗？

可是我真的接受不了我最爱的人对我说出这些话...

心情

和他在一起以及有一个月了。不知道为什么，在这段感情里，我变得特别不理性。

总会向一些有的没的，搞得自己没心情，也弄得他心烦和担心。

可是，现在，这一刻，我还是会胡思乱想。

总觉得我们之间有什么变了，自从我们开始交往后。

总觉得他不够关心我。

常听人说，一个男子在追求一个女子是他对那女子最体贴的时候。

当两个人走在一起了，既然她已经属于他了，男子会觉得不必再刻意表现体贴了。

这是真的吗？所有的男子都是这种想法吗？

我知道他最近在忙着准备考试，没时间陪我是正常的。

可是，我总会忍不住自己一个人在那儿抱怨，想着为什么他不会发简讯过来，自己在猜测着他是还在睡呢…还是在读书…又或者是在忙些别的事。

怕他会开始嫌我烦，所以始终不敢发简讯给他。

每天早上起来，都会检查一遍我的手机，看看他有否传个早安简讯过来。

这样的等待，是幸福，又是煎熬。

幸福是，有着那么一个人让我等待。

煎熬是，等待的那个过程，每一分，每一秒，都特别难熬。

我不知道我会那么的胡思乱想是不是因为我们现在的距离所影响。

我常在想，如果我们很接近彼此，我是不是就会有安全感一点，不会自寻烦恼呢？

假期才刚过了六天，我已经这般难熬了。真难想象，我要如何度过接下来的整整一个多月。

当初说了一个月很快就会过去。

是没错，一个月真的是一段很短的时间。

可是，每当我想念他，这短短的的一个月就可以把我折磨死了。

我知道我这样很不成熟。

以前，我都劝我朋友对待爱情要成熟一些。

现在想想，还真有点讽刺啊！

原来当一个人完全投入一段感情，所谓的成熟根本是狗屁。

她只会变得越来越贪心，想要男朋友给与更多，更多的关心，体贴 和爱。

我很怕，我的贪心，会造成他的负担。

我知道他不会觉得这是负担，可是，我还是会怕。

打从心底，很怕很怕。

很怕将来会有那么一天，他会觉得我很小孩子，很怕他会觉得我很烦，很怕他会对我们这段感情觉得腻了。

我说这些，不是因为我不相信他对我的爱，而是不相信我自己。

我怕会有那么一天，不是他变了，而是我逼得他变了。

是我本身太多虑了，还是我们之间的确是有些什么是和之前不同了？

我希望这些都是我太多虑了。