伴

如果 命運可以訂做

如果 有另一次選擇

我想我 還是會 把手讓你緊握

快樂地陪你去坎坷

就算 你有天變落魄

就算 你老得不能動

我想我 還是會 挽著你看日落

你的心疼在淚光中

嘴巴上 彼此嫌麻煩

眼神中 關懷那麼滿

沒說愛 卻早已認定一輩子的伴

在人前 從來不浪漫

在心中 卻總為對方打算

最懂的人最暖的伴

就算 我以後變囉嗦

就算 我老了有病痛

我想你 還是會 照顧我到最後

隱藏脆弱不眠不休

沒有辛酸 沒有遺憾

什麼是陪伴 什麼是心安 你是答案

I love you more than I know, my dear.

最近的我们怎么了？

我最怕，最不想有的想法终于还是出现在我的脑海了，

对这段感情的心灰意冷。

我最怕，最不想发生的事还是发生了，

最近的你，好象对我们这段感情逐渐冷淡。

以前的你， 担心我去club会有什么意外，熬夜等我从club出来，

你还会特地过来找我，送我回宿舍。

以前的你，就算不舒服早休息，但知道我和朋友出去喝酒后，

你却特地过来我的宿舍外面等我至三更半夜。

这次我们吵架和冷战过后，我心里多盼望你会突然出现在我的家门外,

像以往一样，担心着我，特地下来看我是否安好。

期待你出现的心情，随着望向门外的次数逐渐减少。

到最后，心也沉了。

其实我们的问题可以很简单就解决了，只要你来，到我的面前，

对我说“我依然还是那么爱你”；亲口和我说“对不起”，

不，只要你来，其实你什么都不用说，我也已经原谅了你。

我有想过开口叫你来，可是想到你要工作，

我就是开不了口。

再说，如果一开始你都没想过来找我，那我开口又有什么意义呢？

是我太自私，要求太多了吗？

是我不应该拿以前的你和现在的你做比较吗？

以前就算我们如何争吵，就算我告诉你不必信息或打给我， 

你还是会偶尔发几封关怀的信息过来。

现在，也许是你工作忙吧！你信息给我的次数也没以前多了。

文字上的“我想你”，对不起，我真的感受不到你有多想我。

久了的感情真的会越来越冷淡吗？

你的心到底去了哪里？

你们男人说女人心难猜，可是你们男人的心更难留啊!

女人的心有几难猜？

男人令到女人彻彻底底地爱上男人了，从此女人的心就满满都是男人啊！

想什么都是关于男人！

你们男人说女人难猜，可是你们真的有用心去猜过吗？

如果你真的爱她，就不会觉得她的心难猜透了。

因为她也一样的爱着你，心里都是你。

现在的我常在想，如果你当初没有对我那么体贴，

那我现在就不会越来越贪心，也不会期待那么多了。

最近的我们到底怎么了？

Dot Dot Dot ... ...

We shouldn't end up like this, but what should we do in order to keep ourselves move forward together?

心很痛很痛

现在的我，真的很伤心，很伤心。
为什么？为什么你就是不能明白我的感觉，为什么你就是不明白我想表达的东西！？？？
你会说我每次都爱生气你，那你在问我之前，有认真想过为什么我会那样吗？
你每次都说你说话直接，并没有我所想的那个意思，可是你知道吗？
我每次和别人说话之前，我都会考虑到我说的话或开的玩笑会引起什么后果，更重要的是我在乎别人的感受！
而你就说你只是拿我说过的玩笑，再把这玩笑用在我身上，可能你是想不到我会不受这套？
这话到底是什么意思？是说你很大方，而我是小人之心？
你有想过我当时是什么心情吗？
你说你不知道也猜不透我的心情，难道你要我每时每刻都和你报告我的心情，当我已经是很累很烦恼的时候，你期待我还耐心和你说我在 emo?

每次都要我和你说我的心情和感受而不是你自己去发现，我们的关系到底还能维持多久？我是人，我也会累。

你说你听我的话停止我们的吵架，可是我却一直继续和你吵下去。。。但你知道吗？每次和你吵架，我的心有多难受？难受到我不能出声，我根本不知道应该说什么？可是因为你，我希望你知道我在想什么，所以我选择一再和你讲明，但换来的是你这些深深刺痛我的心的话！你有发现吗？当吵架时，我其实是宁愿保持沉默。就因为你，我学习到慢慢的放开我的心，坦白我们之间的问题，你却觉得我找架吵。那好，我会变回原来的我。起码，我不会再受伤害。

你说我不体谅你工作的累，我就是体谅你累，

有时你说的一些话伤了我的感受我也默默承受和消化，尽量避免不要和你争吵。
有时就算我多想念你，多想见你，为了让你能多休息，我宁愿不要你大老远来找我。
有时你来找我，我也不想把你留太晚，因为我知道你累，因为我会担心你一个人独自驾车回去。
有时你说你很累，我的心就很痛很痛。

我希望你工作能表现良好，所以我劝你少信息，你知道我有多少次拿起手机想信息你吗？你知道我每次都故意迟回复你信息好让别人不会觉得你一直信息吗？

我并没有一直在看我的Running Man, 我每天都是一直在你的Facebook，refresh 又再 refresh!
当我看到她 tagged 你关于你们以前拍的照片，我的心不好受可是因为我知道你忙着做工，我知道你工作后会累，我不想你又要安慰我而弄到你更加疲惫所以我选择自己慢慢平静！

我必须承认，无论过了多久，我依然会对你和她以前的那段过去感到不开心。
那时因为我在乎你！

可是就为了你！我学习变得成熟！我学习看开！

我努力为你改变的一切，你究竟有看到的吗？

我为了你，放弃不健康的行为，一直以来，有那么多的朋友叫我去club, 我都拒绝！ 原因全都是你！就因为不想让你觉得你限制了我的生活，所以我选择告诉你我是因为自己的想法才放弃过去拿一些不好，不健康的行为！

身为一个女朋友，或许我真的有些地方做的不够好，可是我不是神，我也很努力地改变自己！你怎么可以一句话否定我所说的一切？？？

对不起，我不是你那想象中完美的女朋友。

Imma Korean freak!

Finally, I had chopped my hair! struggling for long time ago, at last i have make up my mind and take the courage to cut my hair short!

Luckily all of my friends said it suits me very well, thank you guys! =)
After chopped my hair, I feel that I become more fresh and different, maybe is because 转换发型可以改变心情？So happy that I make a right choice.

Recently nothing special happened, I just staying at home everyday and watching RUNNING MAN!
Oh My Gosh! I'm totally into it! This show is really damn funny and make people addicted!

The Running Man crew!

All of them are just too awesome! 

The Yooruce Willis - Yu Jae-Suk

Ji Suk-Jin

The Framer - Lee Kwang-Soo

The Brain - Song  Joong-Ki

Mong Ji-Hyo

The Peaceful Gary

The Sparta Kookie - Kim Jong-Kook

The Kiddy Haha

Among them I most like Yooruce Willis! He is just damn funny and delightful!

Everytime when I watching the Hide and Seek game, I always wanted that he can escaped from the Sparta Kookie! Arghhhhh!!! So excited!

Running Man fighting!!!

OMG~ Am I just too addicted to Korean variety show??? Hell NO! I'm just into Running Man~Hehehe!

Lastly...

Highlight of the post! Bye Bye~

Live my life happily

Long time did't post about my life, now is time to clean the dust on my lovely blog~
Just managed to customized my blog yesterday, pinky and simple is the best! =)

And talk about my recent life, well, I had finished my internship 顺顺利利 lar!
After involved in the International Beauty Expo 2012 at Kuala Lumpur that hold by my intern company - Elite Expo, I had learnt a lot new knowledge about how an exhibition running, thank you my mates to help me a lot during the fair. Now, I'm started to miss the time I worked at Elite, damn miss the moment i hang out with my colleagues! Hope that we still can see each other in the future! Miss you guys!

And one thing, I'm worrying about my result of internship, sigh...because of my supervisor are a very strict person, I hope that she won't gave too negative comments for my evaluation form. God please bless me get a GOOD result! >.<

The captured picture during the fair (Even busy LIKE HELL during work, still able to take photo! XD)

After finished my internship, I had move back to my house due to I'm having a long holiday until 25th of June! Yahooooo!!! Finally can relax at home LIKE A BOSS!

And finally I have time to apply for the P license driving exam, yeah....I know it is ridiculous, take so long time to get my P license, sigh....due to last time I had worked almost everyday after I graduated from high school.

I began my driving lessons this few days, quite excited but also tiring. The sterring wheel is just too hard to turn around!!! I really hope that I can practice more in parking and uphill training, become an expert and get the P license as soon as possible! Fighting! 

Let's come to travelling part, actually it's just a family trip to Cameron Highland. Last week, my family and I were went back to Kampar to visited my lovely grandmother, meantime, we also went to Cameron! 

Actually We just wanted to enjoy the cool weather at there, planned to overnight at there but unfortunately the hotel room are full... But we still managed to spent our precious family day at there until 6pm something we only leave Cameron. And the sad case is.....There are too many cars came to Cameron and caused TRAFFIC JAM! 

Here are some pictures of the Cameron Highland trip! =)

On the way heading to Cameron, SMILE~ 

The lavenders!!! Wanted to buy it but I think it is hard to take care with so I've give up. Now I'm regret, sure will buy it next time when I'm going to Cameron again!

Lastly, the camwhore photo before leave Cameron Highland! *Wink Wink*

Actually there are many photos in my DSLR but I'm just to lazy to upload one by one~ 

So, maybe next time! =P

Okay, that's all for this post. I think i might more focus to update my blog often since I'm in my holiday now and have nothing to do... Besides, Facebook are really getting boring. I found that updating my blog have much more fun than browsing my facebook~

So stay tuned for my next post! Byeeeee~

Make up my mind

Recently we have gone through a lot of problems and difficulties, we argued, we emo, but at the end we still managed to reconciled. With the time passed, the previously passion that we have might calmed down, but my love for you will never decrease, it will only become deeper. I hope that the passion can be replaced with a sincere attachment and affection. Even the passion is gone, but I know that we still able to hold hand and continue our path together. We will feel deep feelings for each other at this stage and now it is time. I sincerely hope that we can go through this stage and move on.